stupid summer.

Today is an alright day. I should probably move into the new house but i have no motivation to do anything. I should also join a gym but I also have no motivation for that either. I want the warm weather to come its so crappy outside and its depressing me. Also it bothers me that something always has to be imperfect in an otherwise perfect day. Does everything have to be questioned? Why cant people just go with the flow. I am not going to explain every little thing. It is a waste of my time. Can I please just do my own thing without having to worry about who its going to effect? I cant make everyone happy all the time. It just is not possible. Also dreams are not something your subconcious is trying to tell you because if that is the case mine is trying to tell me to get in a bloody violent sword fight in a church to protect Luke DeBoer. WHAT?!?!?! No. Its just not. Therefore if you have a bad dream about someone DONT get mad at that person. I dont FREAKING know why I was in your dream doing something you didnt like. Like i freakin put myself in there and was like hehehe time to make this person mad. Yup. My life plan is to ruin everything. Life goes in circles I tell you.

sad face.

Today I went to the grocery store to buy margarine. I was walking in and some guy was like HEY what kinda music do you listen to? and i was like uhhh idk alternative, thinking it was some kind of survey. Lo and behold he asks me to buy a cd and i didnt know what to say so I was like hmm well im kinda in a hurry and idk how much money I will have when im done shopping so maybe after. BIG MISTAKE. I walk out the opposite door i came in cuz i didnt wanna tell the boy no I felt bad. I should have just coughed up the money cuz he started running toward the car as i got in and drove away... I feel bad. I wonder if he will starve... i hope not. :( Next time I vow to buy a cd if it is less than $10.