Wednesday, December 10, 2008

HELP!

Life is too short. There's too much I want to try. Too much I want to do. It's not as easy for me as it is for some. I can't seem to make a decision. I like school here, but there doesn't seem to be a major meant for me. I don't see myself sitting at a desk. I don't see myself teaching. I don't see myself even learning trivial things that I will never need. On the other hand... I see myself doing a few things, but each involves a different type of school. How do I choose...

1. I could go into art and learn photography or drawing
2. I could go to a culinary school and become a baker of some sort
3. I could go to fashion school and become a fashion designer
4. I could learn graphic design or architecture
5. I could marry rich and be a housewife or travel the world 
(this last one is the ideal choice but yea right.)

The only thing I don't see myself doing is staying where I am. I don't like being in the same spot for very long. It makes me anxious. I want to travel the world. I want to go places. I don't like feeling tied down. I feel trapped like an animal in a cage. I'm scratching to get out. 

Monday, December 1, 2008

blahhh

So life is going pretty good... I don't really have any complaints other than the usual. I still don't know what to do with my life. I don't see myself becoming anything in particular. I feel sort of lost without a path to follow... I wish I had an idea, even if it was just temporary. I have so much to do, but what is it all for? I just wish it had a purpose that I was aware of. Also, I try so hard to get along with everyone, but how do people expect me to get along with people that are mean? I just don't see it being possible. I'm willing to be civil, but don't ask me to give them a chance when they say things about me behind my back. I don't want friends like that. That's all I have to say as of right now.